Yasmin hasn't been around lately which is worrying but Kyle said she was okay. Simply coping with my sickness he said but I somehow doubt it. We were never the closest when it came to our group of friends. I had always managed to stray towards Kyle and Reese. Wonderful boys. Never could replace my rabbit though. He's always been the best.
The same boy from dialysis looked worse today. There was a distant look in his eyes today and even his girlfriend couldn't snap him back. She would try talking to him and he didn't even seem to acknowledge her existence nevermind what she was saying to him. He looked as if he had been crying because his eyes were red and irritated almost. He looked worse than he did before and that had been saying something. I found myself wondering if something had happened to him. That would be horrible though so I quickly found distractions.
My doctor was kind again today though. Made me smile very much but also made me frown when I asked where the beautiful Erin had disappeared to. He had frowned deeply before telling me she passed away while I was gone. I didn't cry though, not for her. Not when she would've loathed the tears I shed over it. I did not mourn. I smiled and told him that she was much better then. What she had was torture within itself.
I feel as if I'm fading out from a lot. I do hope this isn't it for me. I still have so much on my list to finish.